My parents didn’t visit, not once. My caseworker, Margaret, said they’d signed full surrender papers, giving up all parental rights. Jessica was busy with SAT prep and college applications. I was truly on my own, except I wasn’t because Rachel was there.
On day 28 of my hospital stay, when the induction phase was complete and I was in remission, Dr. Patterson came in with good news.
“You’re responding beautifully to treatment, Sarah. We can move to outpatient care now. You’ll need to come in regularly for chemo, but you won’t have to live here.”
“Where will she go?” Rachel asked immediately. She was technically off duty, but had stayed late, as she often did.
“Foster care,” Margaret said. She was there, too, always coordinating my placement. “I have a family lined up. They’re experienced with medical needs.”
“I want to take her.”
Everyone looked at Rachel.
“I want to foster her. I’m already approved. I did the training two years ago, but never had a placement. I can do this. I want to do this.”
Margaret and Dr. Patterson exchanged glances.
“Rachel, this is a long-term commitment. Two more years of intensive treatment, then years of monitoring.”
“I know. I want to do it. If Sarah wants to come home with me.”
She looked at me, and I saw something in her eyes that I hadn’t seen from an adult in a long time. Hope, love, commitment.
“Yes,” I said. “Please.”
The paperwork took another week. During that time, Rachel brought photos of her house, talked about the room that would be mine, asked about my preferences for paint colors and decorations. She made plans like I was permanent, not temporary, like I was her daughter, not just a foster placement.
On November 15th, exactly 1 month after my diagnosis, Rachel drove me to her small three-bedroom house on Maple Street. She carried my single bag of belongings, everything I owned in the world, and led me inside.
“This is your room,” she said, opening a door on the second floor.
I stepped inside and stopped. The walls were painted a soft lavender, my favorite color, which I’d mentioned once in passing. There was a new bed with a purple comforter, a bookshelf already stocked with young adult novels, and a desk by the window. On the desk was a framed photo of Rachel and me from the hospital. Both of us smiling at the camera.
“Welcome home, Sarah,” Rachel said softly.
I broke down crying for what felt like the hundredth time that month, but this time they were different tears. These were tears of relief, of gratitude, of hope. Rachel wrapped her arms around me and held me while I cried.
“You’re safe now. You’re home, and I’m not going anywhere.”
She kept that promise, too.
The next two years were hard. There’s no sugarcoating chemotherapy. It’s brutal. But Rachel made it bearable. She drove me to every appointment, held my hand during every infusion, and sat with me through every bout of nausea. She learned to cook all the bland foods I could tolerate during treatment. She bought me soft hats and scarves when I felt self-conscious about my bald head. She helped me keep up with school work through a home hospital program.
But more than that, she gave me stability, structure, love.
Every morning, even on my worst days, Rachel would come into my room and say, “Good morning, beautiful girl. It’s a gift to see your face.”
Every night, no matter how late her shift ran, she’d come home and check on me, sitting on my bed to hear about my day. On good weeks, we’d go to the movies or the park. On bad weeks, we’d camp out on the couch with blankets and watch terrible reality TV.
She never once complained about the cost. Insurance covered most of my treatment, but there were still expenses. Co-pays, medications, special food supplies. Rachel’s house was small and modest, and I later learned she’d taken out a second mortgage to cover some of the costs. She never told me that at the time. She just made sure I had everything I needed.
6 months into my treatment, Rachel sat me down at the kitchen table with a serious expression.
“Sarah, I need to ask you something important.”
My heart sank. Was she sending me back to foster care? Had she changed her mind?
“I want to adopt you legally, permanently. Not just foster care. I want you to be my daughter. My real daughter. Would that be okay with you?”
I couldn’t speak. I just nodded and cried, and Rachel cried, too, and we held each other in that kitchen until Pancake the cat got jealous and demanded attention.
The adoption process took another four months, but on my 14th birthday, I officially became Sarah Torres. Rachel threw a small party with some of her friends and a few kids I’d met through the hospital’s support group. We ate chocolate cake. I was having a good week and could actually keep food down. And Rachel gave me a necklace with a pendant that had both our initials intertwined.
“You’re mine now,” she said, fastening it around my neck. “Forever.”
Drop a comment and let me know where you’re watching this from. Your support means everything to me.
When I was 15 and finally finished active treatment, entering the maintenance phase with just monthly checkups, Rachel sat me down for another serious talk.
“You’ve missed almost two years of normal school. You’re academically behind, and that’s not your fault. You’ve been fighting for your life. But I want you to know something. You’re brilliant, Sarah. I’ve watched you devour those books, ask questions that make doctors think twice, problem solve in ways that amaze me. You have so much potential, and I’m not going to let cancer or your biological parents’ cruelty steal that from you.”
She enrolled me in an online advanced curriculum program and hired a tutor. She stayed up late helping me with homework she barely understood. She celebrated every small victory, every A on a test, every concept I mastered, every goal I reached.
Continued on next page
ADVERTISEMENT
